Two-Years and a mo(u)rning

It’s 2:30 in the morning in Chicago right now and I stupidly decided to have a caffinated drink before going to bed – I just had a craving for it.  And so, I figured it’d be better for me to make a post and reflect on my recent visit to Boston, rather than tossing and turning in bed.

So, it’s been a little over a couple of hours since the two year anniversary of Eddie’s passing.  I was able to make it out to see Eddie yesterday (it was a beautiful day as it usually is whenever I go to visit him), where I spent my time cleaning around his area and telling him all the thoughts that would pop into my mind.  I believe he can comprehend the things I write about and speak aloud, but also the thoughts in my head.

It’s never difficult for me to want to go and see Eddie at any moment.  I cherish the time I actually get to be where he lays.  Even though I know he’s always around the ones he cares about/care for him, it brings a different level of solace visitng where he physically rests.  Today was no different.

As I was nearing the end of my visit with Eddie, I couldn’t help but step back and absorb the view before me.  I was in a cemetary with Eddie’s tombstone directly in front of me and others laid aside of him.  The emotion that had befallen onto me for a brief moment was acceptance of what’s happened two years ago through now.  I believe acceptance of what’s occured used to scare me, because I thought it would mean the end of my strength to stay put together, but I realize it doesn’t mean that at all.  Though I can’t say I fully (or even majorly) accept these events, I know it doesn’t mean the end.

As I stated during Eddie’s wake two years ago, “my ambition, my motivation, and my success will all be in the name of Eddie.”  I don’t forsee myself steering away from this path.

Post Thanksgiving Thoughts

Another holiday has come by and another one is just around the corner.  I know it can’t be helped but to think about the loved ones we’ve lost during this time (any time, really).  This year when my family gathered at my parent’s home it was all too easy to see the reminiscent images of my own brother running around the house through the years.  Though the images brought some heartache to myself, ultimately I’m happy I have them and can share them with those around me now.

i implore each and every visitor of this site to do the same.  Please allow your loved one to be immortalized here.

Warm Tribute’s One Year Approaching

Warm Tribute is about to reach it’s one-year anniversary on November 27, 2007.  It’s been a very good year and Warm Tribute is progressing at a steady pace.  Throughout the year I have received testimonials from users of this site on how beneficial they feel it is for them.  I truly never expected any kind of feedback such as that, but it truly warms my heart to hear it.  When I first conceived the idea of Warm Tribute, it was mainly aimed at helping my family, Eddie‘s friends, and myself.  I’m really happy to know it’s been worthwhile for some of you out there as well.

Thank you so much for all your support.