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Today marks the 3rd year since my sister-in-law Becky has passed.  Although, the raw pain has faded, my heart still hurts when I think of her and all the things we haven't been able to share.  I still think of Becky everyday and I miss her terribly, still.   I know that she is nearby, because, at times, I can feel her presence in my life and that is a very comforting thing for me, even though it does bring back all the pain I felt when she died and makes me wish even harder that she were here in person.  Some days are still hard for me.  There are still times that I feel the need to talk to her or just hear her voice so badly, that it is a physical pain to me.  Whenever I feel this way, I pull out the last video we shot of her and watch the precious few minutes that she is in it.  It doesn't take away the pain, but I can almost get a sense of peace just seeing her moving and hearing her voice again.   I miss you Becky, and I love you.  

Today, Sept. 18, 2007 marks the 2nd anniversary of Becky's passing and I still miss her as much as I did the year before.  Some days are better than others. I still have moments when I miss her so much I can actually feel the ache in my heart so much it causes me physical pain.  It's at times like those that I feel like I did in the days right after her death.   It doesn't seem possible that 2 years have gone by since I last saw and talked to her.  I miss her so much.  I sometimes call her house and hope that the answering machine will pick up just so I can hear her voice again.  Her husband has not changed the tape yet, and to be truthful, I hope he never does.  It seems that when I am needing to hear her voice the most, I need to call him and he won't be home and the machine will pick up.  I love hearing her voice and it actually calms me and makes me feel that she is nearby.

I miss you more than ever Becky and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and wish you were here.

I love you.