3 years

Today marks the 3rd year since my sister-in-law Becky has passed.  Although, the raw pain has faded, my heart still hurts when I think of her and all the things we haven't been able to share.  I still think of Becky everyday and I miss her terribly, still.   I know that she is nearby, because, at times, I can feel her presence in my life and that is a very comforting thing for me, even though it does bring back all the pain I felt when she died and makes me wish even harder that she were here in person.  Some days are still hard for me.  There are still times that I feel the need to talk to her or just hear her voice so badly, that it is a physical pain to me.  Whenever I feel this way, I pull out the last video we shot of her and watch the precious few minutes that she is in it.  It doesn't take away the pain, but I can almost get a sense of peace just seeing her moving and hearing her voice again.   I miss you Becky, and I love you.