~*~Thinking Back~~*~
Sometimes i forget you're gone. I'll catch myself wondering what you are doing. I think back to the time we spent together. I try to remember the good, but there in the corner of my mind you pop up. Sitting there knees to chest. Your head is bent down. With only the glimmer of white showing in your eyes. The stranger that seemed to consume you with the sickness. I could still see you in your eyes. Once filled with laughter, now sadness. I wish i could have taken away your pain. Even for a moment. Its hard to keep the images of your last months out of my head. I try to chase them away with all the good times. I still remember walking into the room when you slipped away. It feels like yesterday. I can still hear your laughter in the back of my mind. The sound of your voice. Fading with time. Looking back i wish i would have had the strength to take your pain away. To hold on to you so tight that not even God could have pulled you from my grasp. Looking back i would have done a lot of things different. But having you as a Dad i wouldnt have traded for the world!~*~*~*~*~*~*~*Love you Dad, miss you everyday~*~*~*~*~